Pictured: In 2012 I went to Toronto to see the Blue Jays play and I was able to meet them in person
My mom and dad, Nan and Grandpa, Josh (my brother), my football team and coaches… they are unbelievable. I am blown away, absolutely shocked, by all their support. Hands down, the best people ever. From driving me to the doctors to helping me with my license, they are always there for me.
The biggest challenge I faced was...
to accept that I will never be able to play football again and to come to terms with the fact that my life will look totally different than I imagined before my stroke.
My biggest strength is…
my dad and mom are constantly baffled by my positive attitude. I had a stroke and have aphasia, so what? There are two options, the first is thinking “why me, why me?”, the second option is thinking “wow, this sucks, let’s find a new path”. And I picked the second option. Both before the stroke and after, I’ve always had a positive attitude. I don’t know if I would be where I am now without it. I am happy, I am alive, so I am happy.
I got a tattoo that says “Never Give Up” which is a Winston Churchill quote. I picked this for three reasons: I love Winston Churchill, it was the name of my high school, and because we can never give up. And it's there for the rest of my life - never give up. I have another Winston Churchill quote tattoo that says “It is the courage to continue that counts”. In a different universe, I may not have had a stroke, but her stuff happens. But positive attitude is the king word.
My biggest accomplishment was…
improvements in communication: reading, writing, and talking. I am now able to read Manga and comics and come across new words and understand them. Ten years have passed and I feel really really good. I am able to communicate in fuller sentences. About 6 years ago I went to Halifax (Dalhousie) for very intensive speech-language therapy. I was super tired all the time. I would work on speech, and then just go to sleep. I went to therapy for 8 hours a day, and then I would just be dead tired. But it was so good. It made a big difference, 100%. Before I went, I could say one or two words, that was it, but now, I can use full sentences. I think that is pretty good!
In Calgary, I was part of an experimental treatment for my aphasia- the first of it’s kind around the world. For ten days I went to the Children’s Hospital and had my head zapped. They would hook my head up to a machine and zap it for 30 seconds, then I would speak, and then repeat. It was weird. I did that before I went to the Halifax program.
If I could go back to myself, 10 years ago, in the hospital, I would tell myself (and my parents) that I needed glasses. Of course, I would also say “Never Give Up”.
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Some highlights of the past decade:
- Going to Germany with my mom and Dad. It was really really really good. We went to Oktoberfest, where there was no food but lots of beer, it was fun. We visited some cool castles too.
- Going to see the Blue Jays in Toronto and meeting them in person.
- Meeting lots of new people in Lethbridge and in Edmonton through Aphasia groups and programs. People in Manitoba and BC even.
- Learning to play video games with one hand. Using the same controller that is designed for two hands. I stream on my twitch channel disturbed1441 (check it out) under the title One-Handed Bandit (OHB). I have two cameras, one shows my face, the other shows my one hand. It is complicated, but I am actually really good. For one hand, not bad. Not bad at all. I get to meet new people this way, from all over the world - Germany included!
- Meeting Brett Hart at a fundraising bbq. He is a hero of mine. He is a really awesome person.
- I recently got my driver’s license (3 years ago). It is a big accomplishment! I didn’t think this was something I would be able to do. So, it is pretty great.
- I have an arm and leg brace. I named my leg brace Tina and my arm brace Louise - after Bob’s Burgers - I think it is the best show ever. I decided to name them since they are with me all the time.
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Today marks ten years since my stroke and aphasia. My mind is blown! Who knows what the next ten years will bring… moving out, owning an apartment, maybe a family. Never give up!